Elly Grey

 We all fight our demons. It's what makes us human. It shows we can fail and disappoint. Sometimes demons win. But sometimes you do. And sometimes it's too late. 

 I can't help but wonder... I wonder where my thoughts go? I wonder why my voice quivers? I wonder why I'm so scared to speak up?  I have done this a hundred times. Not spoken up when I should have. But I didn't, just to hold on, just to hold onto peace.  But is it really peace, when I've been silenced to not say anything?  Is this why my throat hurts?  Why won't you listen to what I have to say?  Why won't you let me be?

 You are an unpleasant memory and now you are my reminder. You are my reminder to be more cautious of the people I invest my time in. You're my reminder to see people as who they are and not who I want them to be. You are my reminder to fall in love with how people treat me and not with what they say to me. But if by chance I do fall again, you are my reminder that I can survive the worst. 

 Remember that it'll hurt your heart but it'll heal your soul. You've done nothing wrong. You just bared it all. If they didn't understand you or treated you badly, you are not to be blamed.  And you should be glad that you got away from the person who nearly destroyed you. They'll learn their lesson. They'll be sorry for being the one, who had no conscience to worry about hurting you and deceiving you.  You were made to believe it was your fault. But your intentions were pure.  Dust off your knees and keep yourself secure.  Your life is still more stable and better than theirs. They will forever be a mess, in this world and the next. 

 I matter My voice My thoughts My fun My humour My laughter My thoughts My photography My messages My face My eyes My being Me I don't care what you think ir or say I will not compare or compete I will not bring myself down I will go higher and higher.

 Self-care:  Protecting your energy against people who threaten your sanity. Turning off your phone. Sleeping. Minding your own business. Making tough decisions because they are healthy for you.  Creating space for things that bring you inner happiness. Spending time away from people who drain you. Experiencing things alone, instead of waiting for someone to join you.  Knowing you can endure and survive much more than you can think you can.  If it doesn't make you feel fabulous, don't wear it, don't eat it, don't buy it, don't keep it, don't do it.  Rules that I live by. 

 A cup of tea A pen Some paper A thought A song A glance at the time A raindrop A breeze Leaves blowing Air so crisp Noise of traffic Lost in thoughts Yesterday, last night Never again Turn the page A new day Reflection Betterment New.