Complete

 She said she's never loved anyone as much as she loves you. 

And you didn't realise that you were my whole Universe?

Hold

 She's the one you didn't see coming. 

She's the one you can't let go of.

Birthday

 Each year, I write something about myself and my life, on my birthday. I write about lessons learnt in the year gone. I write about what I hope will come. 

So what have I learnt in the past year? 

I have learnt that peace is important. A calm life is a prize. I have won in life when I am still, but the world keeps turning and people come and go. 

There are things I can influence and there are things that I need to let go of. I have learnt that I will love people deeply and that love may not be reciprocated and that is okay because it doesn't mean that my love diminishes. Love goes on.

I have learnt that the biggest revelations will come to me when I have stopped sobbing. Tears just aren't the secret to clear skin. They clear the eyes and they definitely clear the mind.

I have learnt that at this age, I don't need to chase the promotion or the bigger pay packet but focus on my well-being instead. 

And I have learnt that those who are across the miles, online, people who I've never met in life, can be vital in connections to my life, more than I can ever imagine.

I have realised that my bad days are a part of my good life.

I have realised that I have lived three quarters of my life and the days ahead of me are less now than what are behind me. I have a limited number of winters to experience and I want to love each, single one.

I have learnt this year that if I invest in my health, I invest into my 80s.

And I'm looking forward to meeting her.

Life

 If I allow it to embrace me, it will. Gently, and reassuringly. 

Floating together

We have storms happening inside us and we will still smile. Nobody knows our reality, because everyone has their own reality. Nobody's life is smooth sailing and perfect. We are all the same. Happy, sometimes sad, floating together, heads above water, the best way can, through this thing called Life.

Missed

 Just wanted to say this before I sleep; we've said our goodbyes  but there hasn't been a day that has gone where I've not wanted to tell you something, there isn't a moment that I've not wanted to share something with you, there isn't a time that I didn't miss you.

Forever

 If I have loved you once, 

I will hold that love for you forever. 

You may have annoyed me. You may have broken my heart.

I may not talk to you again, but I will hold love in me, forever. 

And you will not understand that. Nobody will but it is how I am.

Because when I see you, I see again, the first time that I saw you.  I recall what you first said to me. I know every love letter by heart, every word you said. I hear your laughter, and I hear your frustrations too and I know then, that love, real love, cannot die. 

It does not.