Birthday

 Each year, I write something about myself and my life, on my birthday. I write about lessons learnt in the year gone. I write about what I hope will come. 

So what have I learnt in the past year? 

I have learnt that peace is important. A calm life is a prize. I have won in life when I am still, but the world keeps turning and people come and go. 

There are things I can influence and there are things that I need to let go of. I have learnt that I will love people deeply and that love may not be reciprocated and that is okay because it doesn't mean that my love diminishes. Love goes on.

I have learnt that the biggest revelations will come to me when I have stopped sobbing. Tears just aren't the secret to clear skin. They clear the eyes and they definitely clear the mind.

I have learnt that at this age, I don't need to chase the promotion or the bigger pay packet but focus on my well-being instead. 

And I have learnt that those who are across the miles, online, people who I've never met in life, can be vital in connections to my life, more than I can ever imagine.

I have realised that my bad days are a part of my good life.

I have realised that I have lived three quarters of my life and the days ahead of me are less now than what are behind me. I have a limited number of winters to experience and I want to love each, single one.

I have learnt this year that if I invest in my health, I invest into my 80s.

And I'm looking forward to meeting her.