Elly Grey

When words fall short, And an action means more.  Kiss me then And I'll know. 

 To experience elation.  To experience flight of the soul.  To touch the wind. To experience bliss. To feel raindrops on my tongue. To quench the thirst that lies within. To be free and happy, because it's my  way of living. 

 Gentleness in this world is all we ask for. That when a person knows what affects you, what may hurt you but never uses it against you. 

 I think about him all day.  I miss him.  Kambakht. 

The little things are big things:  Waking up when the sun rises and watching the sun set. Why? Because you'll witness the most amazing colours and light and be in awe of it all.  Those long car drives, playing your favourite songs, belting out each hit like you are live on stage. Why? Because singing expands your lungs and throws your voice out and you feel super happy, even if you aren't a good singer.  Being around the people who love you, making you understand that you aren't alone in this world. Why? Because we all need people especially the ones you love. It makes you smile and feel so warm, fuzzy. Being grateful each day for what you have because you've earned it. Why? Because gratefulness keeps you grounded and humble. Go. Live.

 I know you don't drink tea, but I'd love to sit with you over one. You can have something else while I drink from my cup. I'll savour each sip and peep at you over the rim, when you would be talking about something. I'll take my time, sipping slowly, just so the moments are prolonged. And then I'd fill my cup again and start over again...enjoying my tea and you, with me. 

 I will not be a victim. I will not allow you to make me think I'm crazy or that I'm the problem.  My entire life I've known men who did that to me. They tried to make me think I was crazy, just because I called them out. But not this time. No way.  My sanity, my heart, my mind, my breath and my health is way too important to me. I will not let your mistake ruin me.  Yes, but what I will do is drop you a notch, and not allow you in my intimate circle. I will not allow you near me again or allow you to hurt me.  Men are all the same. Insecure, self-centred, privileged asses. They can do what they want. They can walk out, walk away and point fingers.  But not now. Not anymore.  Nothing trumps my mental and physical health.  You can do what you want. I really don't care. You just don't have access to me anymore. Simple. Because you lost it.