Elly Grey

 Some days are quiet and the nights are quieter. It's like nobody lives around me anymore.  Yet the world inhabits so many people. They just aren't talking to me.  It's very oddly quiet. Too silent in fact. 

 You cannot describe her beauty.  You cannot capture her nakedness.  Try to paint her, encapsulate her in a frame, write about her. You can't.  Her naked beauty seen by your eyes can only be witnessed for that moment. Never to be seen again.

 I'm sitting here thinking about him. About the things he says to me and does. It's the little things that make my heart smile. He knows it makes my heart smile. And some days for him are hard. He's wounded and hurt. But I'm here, and he knows that. He knows I am. For him. 

Being at home, taking photos, the colour pink, soft flowing fabrics, poetry books, fairy lights lit in a garden, art museums, a spring breeze, parfum, looking at the stars, being near water, scented flowers, antique wooden furniture, watching a day dawn, singing while on a long drive alone, sitting in a cafe having coffee and a friand and... writing. 

 We are all broken. Imperfect. No intimate relationship is perfect. But if you love, then you try the best you can... until you can't.  Don't destroy yourself, your inner happiness.  Life's too short to suffer in something that doesn't give you sunshine yellow joy.  You weren't put on this earth to live miserably day in day out.  Think about it... Is that really the purpose of your Self?  The perfect relationship, the fairytale life... Love quotes are all bullshit.  It's all smoke and mirrors. 

 1. Life will throw curve balls at you, but always know there's a lesson behind every hurdle. It'll reveal itself to you in time in some strange way. You probably won't even realise it then but you'll see it one day.  2. If it didn't work out, it's because something better is coming. Trust the timing. Always tell yourself, "when it's right for me, it'll be". And it will be, when the time is right.  3. Don't settle for bad, half-arsed relationships. Don't settle if you are not happy. Life is short, so move on, go and live. Create your life.  4. You deserve happiness every single day of your life and that happiness you'll bring to yourself. Don't rely on someone to make you happy. They can't and won't because people are too self-absorbed in their own lives.  5. Look after your mind, your body and soul. Nourish them with things that are good for you. Health is important at every stage of your life. Start early, your old...

 Loving yourself isn't vanity. They can love you too, but first, you must love yourself. Only then can you accept the love of everything else.