I slept

Breathing in sync with his heartbeat. Moving to the rhythm of his chest. Being held tightly and not a care in the world, I slept.

Stay

 There's an invisible circle that goes around me. 

Stay with me. 

Stay in my world.

Can't you hear me when my words aren't reaching my lips? 

Can't you see me? 

I'm yearning for you? 

You've become deaf to my voice so even if I call out to you, you won't turn around and you won't stay. 

It saddens me that what we once shared is no more. 

But for once,

just stop, 

turn around 

and look at me. 

Better and best

A new book and a new page to turn. Let's make it better and best. 

Enough of the self-pity and sorrow.

Enough of others putting voices in my head about what they think I am. 

I am me. I am strong. 

I can face anything and handle anything. 

I love myself and I am enough. 

I do not need anyone.

I am enough on my own. 

Tea for one

 He told me I'm not his cup of tea. 

Makes sense...he doesn't drink tea.

Favourites

The smell of fresh linen, a scented candle of teak, oud and neroli combined, fresh Autumn mornings just after the rain, humid Summer evenings with the waft of Raat ki Rani, plucking a rose and knowing it'll smell like a rose should, Spring days near the Ocean, fairy lights in the garden and chasing a yellow Moon.

Again

 So then I'll pull away too and this friendship will die a slow death. There'll be less conversation, less talking and less laughter. Small joys won't be shared. 

It'll be over soon. 

Close your eyes Elly, 

It won't hurt this time. 

Deserve

 I will not allow sadness, insecurity and pain come into my heart. 

I will make sure I'm financially secure and my health is good. 

I will ensure that I'm safe. 

I deserve the best. I deserve happiness and love. 

I deserve love.