One day

 I hope I'll understand it one day, I was always enough for me.

Attune

What is the sound of me letting you go?

Listen...

Listen like you've never heard my voice before. 

Attune yourself, ears and eyes open, to a sound you'll never forget. 

Him

 I love him.

That's all I know. 

Drown

Start with one lap freestyle,

Then one lap breaststroke back. 

Heart rate pounding like a drum.

But I keep swimming 

I'll drown my demons and you before I stop.

Wanderlust

 Travel places, take photos and drink coffee in quaint cafes, while the world walks on by. 

Good heart

 I have a good heart and that's my downfall.

I forgive people's indiscretions when they've hurt me. 

One month

I haven't seen him in so long...

Only my Being, 

Every part of me,

Knows that pain.

Death

 I bloomed in reverse, but I eventually did bloom.

The stars

 If you look carefully, you'll see them. The ones who are super quiet, the ones who sparkle without calling for attention, the ones who stand out despite a dark setting. The ones who have a fire within and warm those all around them. 

Pen, ink and paper

 A pen, ink, some paper and my thoughts... I write to you.

It's the beautiful things in my life and my world that remind me of you. 

What am I writing to you about? 

Well, I tell you about my day. I tell you about how much I've missed you and thought about you. 

I describe to you what I have seen in my way. 

I like to do this because, although you are far away, you become a part of my day. 

And I think, that if you were right here next to me, I'd be telling you all this too. 

And you'd be listening and smiling.

But because you aren't here, I'm writing to you, to involve you , to bring you into my life and show you ...mine. 

Today

 Today I chose to turn the page. Today I said to myself that I am enough. I told myself that I've done as much as I can for everyone and now it's time to look after Me. Today I decided that I'll do everything to nurture my soul. I will indulge my senses, look at beautiful things, capture moments and immerse myself in sensory pleasures. I will not wallow in self pity or let anything get in my way. I will rebuild my life like a perfect movie, casting myself as the heroine. I will count my blessings... beginning with Myself.

Hold

 If you want to weep, then do it with your whole heart.

Empty yourself, so then when someone asks if you're done you can say "Yes, I've nothing left in me". 

And then let them hold you.

Calm down

 When you tell me to calm down, know that my heart is bleeding like it's been stabbed. My breathing is erratic because I've been running and running and my mind is a mess, because I've been trying to find my way through this maze. So, when you say calm down, this body has already reacted, this mind has over thought and my soul is looking to escape and no matter what you say, calmness will not come.

Garden

I will never wait for flowers from you. 

Why should I, when I have my garden in bloom?